Status Report

Looks like I'm going to be in another HIATUS this month. The weather hasn't been nice lately, and knowing that my body is at its fragile state, it simply doesn't hold off against the fluctuative spring-like weather. We don't have Spring Season in this country, but the side effect has lots of hard rain and cold weather almost everyday. I admit that my body is just too sensitive for rapid climate, so here I am typing this post with a runny nose, annoying coughs, sore throat and with the accessories of sneezes here and there, under the wrap of a thick blanket. The afternoons, -if it's NOT raining hard- is very HOT even when it's cloudy, but the nights is the opposite with its low and chilly temperature... it's not even SNOW! X_X Well, it's TOTALLY NOT comfortable to be in this situation.

Health has never been the thing I could be proud of this time of the year, but somehow I feel that this year's the worst so far. Prolly because it's the year of revelation? Haha... last year around this time (March-April) I got a flu that lasted for several months and ended sometime around September, but it was mostly in form of headaches and asthma. This year, it's the one that attacks my nauseal area more, and well... psychological state as well. I would like to say it as a 'mental breakdown' though to be honest, it's actually just a 'mood breakdown'. I guess in reality I'm not that CRAZY enough, though I admit I feel like one haha. I remember having this kind of issue back in the past, perhaps in 2007, and it got me in a very tight situation thanks to my moody emotions and lazy gestures. It's happening again, but it's in a deeper peak this time, that you could see a dark thundering cloud hovering above me or a black deadly aura surrounding me. Well, that's probably too anime to imagine, but you can definitely feel such gloomy and mellow atmosphere emitting from me. So yeah, I needed some time off, to take care of myself and to fight my inner giant. This downtime in the mood section is preventing me to do more than I would / could, and that goes for editing music or anything related to art, cause for me personally, they are mood-based.

Internet is the other reason for this. Tomorrow my internet will be down again, and if I'm lucky I could get it on again in a few days. Last month I was thinking of changing the provider, and even had decided to do it. Suddenly, the internet price for that provider was changed (for the worst: more expensive, worst quality), and before I even had chance to enjoy a new internet connection, I got 'robbed' instead. It felt like a point blank in my head. I won't go into details, but the conclusion was that I had to return to using my previous provider, which -I had to weirdly admit- has now probably become the most reliable and affordable among its competitors in my country (for me personally). It didn't even improve greatly, and still the shitty ass like it used to be though. I guess I'll need to start looking for another reasonable substitute after it goes off tomorrow. My salvation during this offline-time are my game consoles, but my NDS crashes here and there, and I couldn't use my Xbox because the power stabilizer sorta exploded several days ago. I've been having those terrible 'hit-and-run's lately, and they definitely aren't getting my spirit up.

So yeah, I'm calling it off starting tomorrow, while I work on my physical and 'mental' health issues. I'd still record a song or two, -that is, during the time when my nauseal area is reliable enough to accomplish one- but probably won't be publishing much or at all this month, knowing that I still have lots of tracks I need to clean and edit first. Don't worry if I had already agreed for a duet or another Fandub related stuffs, I planned on getting them done at least before the month ends. It will need time to get them done though, so I hope you won't mind waiting (again). As I said, I can sing again if my health is better (cause damn those pitchy off-notes I produced during the flu are totally NOT fun to hear T_T), and I can edit more songs when my mood is better (I simply can't stand doing a certain task for long duration when I'm like this, I'll get grumpy instead). I hope I can get them back as soon as possible, so I can sing my heart out again...

I wanted to post this on April 1st, but afraid that people would get the wrong idea and think of it as April Fools, when it's totally NOT. You might think that I'm being whiney, it's fine... in a way it may seem like that, but the main purpose of me giving this report, is to let you all know prior-hand just in case I go M.I.A. or you don't be hear anything from me during this month. Hopefully I'll be able to pass this ordeal alive hahaha...

So, thanks for reading, and the support!
This is Furede Riko, signing off.....

PS: I'm not a fan of Onion-Head, but he does a remarkably good job of interpreting my current condition here, so I'll leave it to him instead hahaha...